Lari: nikmati kehidupan

Penat berlawan dengan diri. Bercakap tak henti2 pikiran aku nih. I know i have to do something about myself. I have a very healthy appetite these days, sinfully healthy. Dan dalam masa sebulan ni, aku rasa aku telah membelon.. aku senang hati agaknye, aku nak makan itu ini, aku sukeee nak makan bende2 manis dan aku cuma nak balik dan lepak depan tv. Aku perasan baju dah mula rasa ketat2 sket. Tiap kali aku lalu tepi padang, mata aku melirik kat track, aku rasa nak pegi jogging, aku rasa nak turun main tennis balik, aku rasa nak buat Salsa semula. Tapi semua tu aku takat rasa aje. Nak menggerakkan badan tidak jugak, and my triceps are sagging. Arggh.. I think i’m damned tapi sebab aku maleh nak buat something yet, so i’m double damned.

There’s this gym nearby i’ve been eyeing for quite sometime. 2 weeks b4 V day i called and asked about the fees and what activities they have there. 1 day after V day, i went to check out the place with Himself. I found out:  tak mahal, no limit utk menggunakannya, free to join any dance/aerobic/yoga class, on the way to my house, pleasant environments, friendly staffs. I signed up. I said i’ll start after CNY and i never did until yesterday when i’ve confronted the ‘NoNeedToExerciseDemon’ in me who wants me to stay fat and feel bad about myself. I began to wrestle with the ‘demon’ on Saturday when i dragged myself to QB malls and get a good sports bra and socks for a start. I gave my Adidas a kiss  squeez and softly whisper, sorry i’ve been abandoning u for quite sometime now but please help me get thru this again. Then yesterday morning, after doing some Watchhaaa action infront of the mirror and kick the demon in the shin, CIK LARI finally WENT TO THE GYM. heheh.

It turned out to be a pleasant 1st class for me. Darren the guy whom i talked to were there and explained to me on how to use the equipments. He’s very helpful, nice and have a voice like a deejay or even better than most deejays. I tried some of them, make myself sweat a lil’. Tonite, there is Hatha yoga and Bellydancin’. And i’m definitely going!

If aku nak buat sesuatu kerja, most of the time i’ll put my heart and soul to it. 2 tahun lepas, jabatan kami telah berjaya mengadakan satu international conference about our line of work. And me, being the assist. secretary rasa sangat enjoy dengan kerja2 menjayakan conference tu. Dari kerja menghantar brochures promosi, sehingga lah sesak2 nafas menunggu respon, seram2 sejuk menjadi emcee, aku betul2 rasa bertanggungjawab, komited dan excited dengan the whole process. It was a success.

This year, management decided to have the conference again which will be in late October - early Nov. Maka bermula lah episod baru tugasan assist. secretary yang masih juga aku! Tapi kali ini, I’m not excited about it, at all. Aku fikir  maybe kerana tarikhnya yang lebih kurang sebulan sebelum tarikh perkahwinan aku seperti yang dirancang. Tapi bukan kerana itu. Aku tahu membahagi feelings aku, kat mana perlu seronok, kat mana perlu serius.

Sebenarnya aku rasa tak seronok sebab main board comittees itu sendiri yg dah tak best cam dulu. Dulu ramai senior, yang skang dah pun pencen. Dengan org lama ni, memang kadang2 agak payah kita nak follow kepala dorang, tapi dorang ni ade timbang rasa dan lebih pandai appreciate org. Comittees skang ni ok juga, cuma yg tak best ketua aku saje.. yg asyik nak komplen dia banyak keje..dan semua  tugas2an dia, dia pass kat aku. Padahal aku tengok dia buzy sembang ngn org aje. Itulah sebenarnya yang buat aku tak seronok nak buat keje2 utk conference kali ni. Bila dah camni, aku rasa cam nak cepat2 sampai bulan 10 so that i can get it done and over with. Rimassss sangat.

Dan kerana itu, aku kena plan betul2 aktiviti dan persiapan aku. Aku bakal buzy banget selepas pertengahan tahun ini. *Sigh*